Dun nod ....

alot of things happen recently ...

My mood also super moody ...

Last time he hurt me ...

Now he get hurt by someone else ...

but i still feel hurt in my heart ...

I see him so sad ...

I also dun have mood ...

Dun have mood in everything ...

I just hope that he will be fine in no time ...

And GOD !!!! If you can hear me ...

Pls let him be happy ok ...

I will miss his smile ...

Cus i dun nod when will the cracks in his heart will heal up ...

and of cus ...

I will still be with him ...

By his side supporting him ...

And i am his listening ears ...

Just wanna tell him ...

Dun worry ...

Everything will be fine after sometime ...

And i will be here with him ...

I will not leave him alone ...

I dun nod lei ...

I have a very complicated feeling ...

I dun nod how to say ...

Haiz ... why my life so many ups and downs de?

PS:

How can your most beloved be erased from your memory?

How can the most painful hurt in your life be healed?

When you lose your love and fall into despair, There’ll always be one person who is always there protecting silently from behind…

那天我扬起帆 想看看未知的海
心里很多话想说说不出来
虽然我脸上看不出来
天空一样蔚蓝 却换了多少云彩
那时的你让我幸福百分百 是否为我等待

我知道 我的爱 一直都会存在
没有你泪停不下来
你知道我依赖多不想say goodbye
我痛说不出来
我知道 我的爱 一直都会存在
没有你快乐都停摆
某一天我期待和你笑的灿烂
回头看爱 都在

站在你的门外 我决心不再徘徊
心里很多话想说说不出来
但我想你一定都明白
时间过的好快 想念却不曾更改
现在的你是否幸福百分百 我应该怎麽猜

爱 一直存在

When is the last time i had cry myself to sleep?

It was like super long ago la ...

But Ytd the feeling come back again ...

when i was about to close my eyes and sleep ...

This song played on the radio ...

分手总在雨天

My tear flow from my eyes ...

this song got a very special meaning behide it ...

whenever i hear this song i will cry ...

But it played on the time where i am so affected ytd ...

when i am on the way home ytd ...

i pray that he will not call me in the night ...

I ask god dun treat me so cruel ...

But in the end while i am tearing while looking at the photo that we took tgt ...

He called ...

I got no ideal how he know i am thinking about him ...

but he just called and say ...

"See anyhow think again right? I know it."

At that moment i really think he got magic power or wat ...

I never called him the whole day ... but yet he know what i am thinking.

Is it because we too understand each other ?

Or he really can feel how sad am I ?

He try to explain to me everything ...

But i am just so affected until i could not speak properly ...

From 12.20am to 1.15am almost 1 hour ...

I cannot speak properly ...

after he hang up the phone ...

i still cannot get back to sleep ...

but i seriouslly feel much beta ...

Looking at our photo with my teary eyes and fall asleep ...

I guess today is my hard day ...

Also dun nod what to do ...

Just wanna be alone today ...

With all the songs that will make me cry, hide inside my room and cry until i got no tears ....

Dear readers ....

Today i super depress ...

Super Moody ...

Dun ask me why ...

I just been affected by him ...

I dun nod how long i still can bare with all this ...

I just wanna be happy ...

But why happiness hate me so much ?

MY NEW BLOGSHOP OPENED !!!!

Hihi, recently busy with my new blogshop http://knitmywool.blogspot.com/

Yup i and my other 2 friends are selling our baby booties ...

As it is all handmade ... that why is quite time consuming

But i am happy doing all this ...

And the good new is ...

we already had 2 orders ...

so friends,

Pls support me ya ...

If you dun have babies, can buy as a gift and give it to your friends which have ...

For more details can go to the link above.

Friends of mine will have discount wor ...

But your must help me promote ok?

below is some of the baby booties that i have make this few days

ok ... and this 2 pairs is for my ex bf de friend ...

becus they are giving birth to a baby boy ...

Hope they will like it.

Past is Past

No boyfriend accompany nowaday ...

so i got myself some new love ...

My new love ...

First is

福氣又安康

A nice show from taiwan ....

Abit like ming zhong zhu ding wo ai ni ...

Next is ....

紫玫瑰 I think the male lead is handsome lor ...

Next is ...

終極三國

A super funny show ...

I will wan to watch whenever i am feeling down ...

And i just finish watching this ...

ID 精英

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Tuesday le ... would sat faster come?
Can't wait for sat to come ...

Cus i gonna meet my ITE

BOY & GIRL friends for dinner ...

so happy ...

Hope i will meet my Corny Crew Soon too ...

I suddenly miss the past ...
Like last time how we do fliming ...

we ride bicycle at ECP ...

going out as a group ...
how we wear the same Pink T-shirt and walk in the middle of Orchard Road ...

And we when to cine to "Open Room"

We alway have so much fun ...

No troubles ...

Play till mad ...

Play till crazy ...

Enjoy every moment we are together with ...

But after everybody got their own gf and bf

and their own things to busy with ...

we jiu seldom meet le ...

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云飘在天空
浪在海流动
这世界太多
无法掌握的梦
你站在风中
你是自由的
生命有太多
不得不分的痛
当你将离别握在我手心
我听见爱被悄悄捏碎的声音
你不懂你不要的我的心
会随你松开的手而喊停
我试着微笑
试着拥抱
在每一秒
我不想看见闭上的眼睛
害怕你最后
化成泪流出手心
你给过的承诺
我怎能不放手
当诚实诉说
他的爱多辽阔
这是我的手
它牵过你往事中度过
这段漫长的路
不该走到寂寞
流泪手心

Emo-ing day ... Friday is here again ...

People Friday is happily wait for 5pm and out out with friends ...

My Friday is super boring OK ...

Not like last time ...

I love weekends ...

But now ...

I hate weekends ...

I am not happy at all ...

All he know is ask me to move on without him ...

But he will never know how hard it will be ...

i am Doing so much and trying so hard here ...

But i Dun even get a bit of respect from him ...

keep on comparing me and other gals ...

WTH from the start you already know i am not them right?

then why compare?

have you wondered how it feels when it s all over,
wondered how it feels when you just have to

start a new,
Never knowing where you re going,
when you face a brand new day,
It used to be that way,
now I just close my eyes and say

I just want to breathe again,
learn to face the joy and pain,
discover how to laugh a little,
cry a little, live a little more,
I just wanna face today,
forget about the woes of yesterday,
maybe if I hope a little,
try a little more, I ll breathe again

starting out again is never easy,
disappointments come and go but life still moves on,
with a bit of luck, it s a brand new start,
that might just work my way, no need to walk away,
don t want to live on life replay

*Things will work out fine,
if you can find the courage to look past the night,
to see the reek of dawn

My 100 Post !!!

I think he already forget all the promises he make to me ...

Cus maybe to him promises is meant to be break ...

Ok ... I enjoyed yesterday ...

But once again been hurt ...

This is what the Cruelly Reality ...

will alway do to me ...

Let me have it ...

And let me lost it the very next moment ...

~*记得 By: 张惠妹*~

谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后
我们都忘了
这条路走了多久
心中是清楚的
有一天有一天都会停的
让时间说真话
虽然我也害怕
在天黑了以后
我们都不知道会不会有遗憾
谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后
我们都累了
却没办法往回走
两颗心都迷惑
怎么说怎么说都没有救
亲爱的为什么
也许你也不懂
两个相爱的人
等对方先说找分开的理由
谁还记得爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中
看见了不同的天空
走的太远
终于走到分岔路的路口
是不是你和我
要有两个相反的梦
谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后

我好想他
现在好吗
旧画面还在记忆里挣扎
那年的夏结束时说的话
一直不能放下
他说爱啊
爱很伟大
所以才能让他勇敢离开
当时的我
不明白为什么
直到时间白了头发

我懂了他
他不让眼泪落下
所以让爱结束在最美刹那
他的眼里进了沙
他算了吧够了吧
不要再苦苦挣扎
不要我为他牵挂

他说天空很大要自由飞翔
没有结果的爱情
他放了吧走了吧
不想要彼此受伤
他那么傻

Random Pix

My 3rd pair of Booties

My 1st pair of Booties
My 1st pair of Booties

Ok I and Miss Ferlicia when to Vivo tgt ...

My Bag with all the Knitting stuff...

We are @ Carl's Jr

Enjoying my Burger!!!

She is enjoying her Mushroom!!!

Hmmm ... shiok!!!

My 1st pair of Booties

Random pix that i did not post ...

Random pix that i did not post ...

Random pix that i did not post ...

Ok this is Super Nice ....

Old Me !!!

Share this Song With you guys ...
Is call 如果我变成回忆 By Tank

I think is super nice ...
Not as in the song only ...
the lyric and everything ...
If there is this guy willing to do all this for me ...
I mean the way he think ...
Then he will be my husband le bah ...

Cus the lyric is telling the way he is thinking ...

How he is feeling ...

If he die one day ...
And what plan he make for his partner ...

But if my the other half think the way the singer is thinking ...

even i know he is dying soon ...

I will also wanna marry him ...

I love the singer way of treasuring and cherish the every very last moment with his partner ...

*(Only for people which cherish a person before .... Then you can understand what the singer want to say)*

For those who never cherish before ...

You will never understand ...

Learn to treasure and cherish ...

Once i treasure a person so much ...

But in the end i had been hurt deeply by this person ...

Becus he dun know how to treasure ...

Just hope that if one day ...

another gal appear in his life ...

And this gal willing to share his trouble and accept his everything ...

Hope this gal can be cherish by him ...

I know some of my friend dun know how to read chinese ...

but if you does ...

You will feel so touch ...

Here it goes ...

累了照惯例努力清醒着
也照惯例想你了
好怕一放心睡了
心跳在梦中不听话的
就停止了

听着呼吸像浪潮拍动着
越美丽越让我忐忑
我还能珍惜什么
如果我连自己的脉搏都难掌握

如果我变成回忆退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣
我冰冷身体拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅行

我会恨自己如此狠心
如果我变成回忆终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发
蹒跚牵着你看晚霞落尽

漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以让他陪你
我不怪你

快乐什么时候会结束呢
哪一刻是最后一刻
想把你紧紧抱着
可知你是我生命中的
最舍不得
如果我变成回忆最怕我太不争气
顽固地赖在空气
霸占你心里每一寸缝隙
连累依然爱我的你痛苦承受失去
这样不公平请你尽力
把我忘记

I admit that my heart is aching and he did wet my eyes when he msn me and tell me "Good choice, as my msn nick put (I will forget the pain you gave me and smile with the smilex you'll be missing) when i blogging this post ...

It is super hurting ...

But i already use to it ...

Becus he hurt me so much ...

Thats why he is so unforgetable ...

And this is also the reason why his name has been tattoo in my heart forever ...

And i will miss him everyday in my heart ...

thats why i will forgive him and forget the pain he gave me ...

and gave him a big smile instead ...

Monday after work go Queensway meet Tom and Mum ...

And Chee Hao Drive to Queensway and find me ...

So ask him to send mama and Tom Home ...
After that we catch a movie at Jurong Point ...

We watched Transformers ...

Is super nice ...

BumbleBee and Optimus Prime is so cool!!!

Haiz ... NEC is not a place which i wanna work for long lor ...

but now job hard to find ...

Anyone got job intro?

I think my heart really die le lor ...

If you ask me why ...

I will tell you ...

Becus i had enough nonsense from all those guy ...

You will know who am i talking about ...

The more i trust them ...

The more they hurt me ...

I also dun understand

what i did wrong ...

But forget it ...

Never trust guys again ...

thats is all i can say ...

*你的笑容是恩惠世界难得那麽美
於是追要你陪
可惜本能终会将美丽汗水化成泪水

黑夜之所以会黑叫醒人心里的鬼
在游说在萦回
在体内是什麽在把我摧毁在伤痕累累

我可以无所谓寂寞却一直掉眼泪
人类除了擅长颓废
做什麽都不对 i'm not okay

我假装无所谓才看不到心被拧碎
人在爱情里越残废
就会越多安慰无论(有)多虚伪
空虚并非是词汇能够形容的魔鬼
它支配着行为
能摆脱寂寞我什麽都肯给就像个傀儡

Wow i super angry lor ...
You are the most heartless man i had ever met ...
You know who you are lor ...
Yes i am talking to you ...
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
You recently dun nod wat happen again ...
Ke siao ...
Mood swing ...
everything come again ...
I remind you again hor ...
I never own you anything ...
Dun show me attitude hor ...
I will forgive you for this time ...
But not for the next ...
Everytime need me then look for me ...
Dun need me jiu show meet attitude ...
I am also a human ok ...
Dun treat me like your toy ...
Becus i hate the feeling ...
I believe u hate the feeling being treat like a toy too ...
Yes i am super angry now ...

After so long le ...
He is still the same ...
alway make me disappointed...
He forever will only think for himself ...
Will not think of others feeling ...
forever so selfish ...
only will call or find me when he need me ...
I am a living human not your toy ...
You will just throw me a side when u dun need me ...
from last time till now never change ...
I already give u alot of chance ...
But the fact never change ...
your selfishness ...
And only thinks that you are right ...
other people in this world is all wrong ...
Make me disappointed ...

你说了一万遍的你爱我

你说了什么我都懂

因为爱很久 所以我都懂

可是我发现没人能永久

就算我们曾勾勾手 还是会寂寞

没有你之后 我才明白的更多

你看着我来 我看着你走

生命有太多分分合合

难免要承受的痛

就算捂住耳朵 我还能听见你呼吸的温柔

就算我会心痛 你的好永远都填满我心中